Coming back

Summer ended, school began. I had great plans for what I was going to do with my "free time." Then, life happened and put me in my place.

Literally, my computer broke. And careful adding of the checking account showed me that we are just going to have to live without a computer for awile.

If you follow me on facebook (please do, I'm much better about posting there), you'll remember that I had an unfortunate tick bite right before school started that knocked me on my butt. Literally. For about two months I could barely scrounge up the energy to get through the day. Barely existing.

Then my husband went to Europe for eight days for work. The less said about that, the better. We survived. Barely.

But late last week, I ran into a friend that I hadn't seen in awhile and she asked me how I was feeling. After a second of thought, I realized that I'm much better.

The doctor prescribed an amped up version of Aleve, which has an anti-inflammatory component that it seems I needed. I could tell the difference with the first pill.... sweet relief. And I kept getting better.

I've had a vicious cold for the last week or so, but that's par for the course for this time of year. 

Finally, I am realizing that I am not dead. I do not feel like crap every single day. I have a little bit of extra energy to give. 

I think when you deal with chronic fatigue and pain for so long, you forget what it's like to actually feel GOOD. So it took me awhile to realize that that's what I'm feeling. Good! Hallelujah!

So this weekend, I acted normal. I did not nap!! I went for a 4.5 mile walk and it felt great. I almost cried about halfway through, because two months ago I would not have been able to do this. 

Look at me! Walking and smiling!! If this picture came out sideways, turn your head and blame my phone. It's smarter than me.

Look at me! Walking and smiling!! If this picture came out sideways, turn your head and blame my phone. It's smarter than me.

Today I am typing this out on my phone with my thumbs. Because sometimes you have to find a workaround. It sucks not having the money for a new computer, but that's the reality. It sucked being sick for so long, but I was lucky that it ended. The financial strain will end in time, too. We made choices that put us where we are, and I don't regret them.

The point of today's post is blurry. It's mostly just to write a post again (and to see if it works from my phone!). But also, to express the joy I feel in doing normal things again. And to shout that I'm finally looking forward to whatever today will bring.